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Posted in life on Jul 29th, 2002
I grew up in a house that was predominately intellectual. Issues were resolved through discussion and reason; emotions rarely ever played a part. And when emotions did present themselves they were attacked. My family had two responses to emotional expression during my childhood: anger or Band-Aids. Either my parents would get angry with me for [...]
Posted in life on Jul 29th, 2002
It was an amazing weekend. Both Thursday and Friday evenings my wife and I had long, deep discussions about some issues that had started to build between us. We both work hard at airing out the little petty things before they become bigger, uglier issues that are impossible to deal with.
I am depressive and tend [...]
Posted in life on Jul 26th, 2002
My wife and I had a very difficult and important discussion last night. The past 2 months have been extremely stressful for both of us. The cause of my stress is visible and easy to point out, my job situation. The cause of hers is less open and visible. It is nonetheless just as important. [...]
Posted in relationships on Jul 25th, 2002
Posted in life on Jul 22nd, 2002
I have a depressive tendency to my personality. I think I have always known this subconsciously but I have only recently started to consciously think about my actions. I am not clinical, but I could slip down to that level should I stop trying to fight my inner voice.
There is listlessness to my actions and [...]
Posted in nerdliness on Jul 19th, 2002
Posted in life on Jul 18th, 2002
I work as an independent software consultant. Currently I am sub-contracting through another company to the local state government. As consulting gigs go this is pretty cushy. The contracts are one year in length, with the cost of the two one-year extensions built in from the start. Basically if you can do the work and [...]
Posted in life on Jul 16th, 2002
I know that I tend to run back to old, destructive, behaviors when I feel threatened. An important recent discover of mine is realizing that I have contributed to leaving past jobs by shooting myself in the foot so I had to leave. I think, and this is only a guess, that I like it [...]
Posted in random on Jul 15th, 2002
I just had another lovely ’service’ experience at the local Audi dealer. It’s one of these multiple marquee places handling Toyota, Audi, and Volkswagen. The underlying service model is distinctly American. That is to say a no service model.
Recently I had new tires put on my Audi. During that process the technician managed to gouge [...]
Posted in life on Jul 15th, 2002
I am finding myself more and more frustrated with my job. For years I’ve told people that I get paid to play. However, the past few years this has been less and less true. There is a progression that happens as a software developer, you start as a programmer and advance through various jobs until [...]
